Hellmouth Portal

— my new favorite creation. hehe. actually a song but a song is a poem that is sung, right? enhow, here, here! —

Let me sleepwalk

Since this nameless street

Kept forcing to drag my feet

Let me drop dead

Since I woke alone

Kept hearing a silent dial tone

[@] Sometime this day I want to bleed, Guess it doesn’t matter now with nobody to heed…

[***@***] The sky is bare

             The city sleeps

             And I stand naked on this street

             Off you went

              Might as well be dead

             But why am I still here?

Let me jump off

Saw the stars closing in

Feel the wind blowing

I miss you so much

Can we be together now

If you let me do all these somehow? [@] [***@***]

[&&&] Fall upon my knees

          Let it all roll down my cheeks

          I’m scared enough as it is

          Come on give me a sign

          Come on help me do this [@] [***@*** 2x]

I really want to leave

I wanna be where you are

Are you out there?

Can you at least hear me?

The sky is bare but I am still here…

Head inside rotting maggots

Help falling cannot see

Surface bleak cannot robot be

Selfish untrue this is me

Swirling head apathy

Mixed fire water oil

Understand impossible toil

But light I’m just weak

Hypocrite alone this is me

Pull push excercise

Door locked forever seems

Lost key stupid stupid

Cannot change cursed

Rethink ideals perception

Everything.

Nothing.

Help cannot should not

Do not want to kill

Keep the bottle all mine

One.

No No Hard to breathe

Pain crawling eating spreading

Maybe Maybe me just me

Think hurts somehow have to

Puzzle broken Please

Please Please ask then push

I’m wrong whole me

The pretender holds on air

Anymore do not care

Blank.

Leave it blank.

See.

See me blank.

Down. Through the hallway
I saw his face.
Everything was right.
Darkness enveloped me
still he was in sight.
Down. In this hallway
I lost my heart.
Wind blew across my cheeks
And I was falling.
Wondering whom to seek.
Down. Through the hallway
I could not speak.
Something clutches in my chest.
He stared back
And I failed my test.
‘Cause down I went
In the bottomless pit
To fall on my back
To see the white star
Black and white fighting over a seat
Just to be beside where you are…

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i don’t know why i really like this poem when it’s so typical but i posted it on all my blogs. anyhow, i’m just going to transfer everything i have in my myspace account so i can clean that account up for songs… ah.. whatever, elaborate some other time… if you do want to check out the songs (lyrics for now) that i posted there here is the address: