Hellmouth Portal

Dahil sa pagka-obsess ko sa kantang Lover I Don’t Have to Love ng Bright Eyes, I thought it’d be funny to repost this. Not funny, haha. But funn you know…

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1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.
2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.
3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their screams saying they’ve been tagged.
4. If tagged a second time, there’s no need to post again.

He/ she.

[01] Perfect lover? Lover? Then of course, first requirement: must be good in bed (or any other place for that matter  )
[02]Can listen to me complain about the shallowest things.
[03]
When asked "Where are we going to eat?", must have a specific answer.
Doesn’t answer, "I don’t know, what/ where do you want to?"
[04]
Doesn’t cover insecurity with the know-it-all attitude, especially when
he or she doesn’t really know anything. I’m okay with stupidity, as
long as one admits it. (is there someone like that?)
[05] Wise enough not to diss my (current) obsessions, ex. mcr, buffy, dr. seuss..etc.
[06] Funny.
[07] Smarter than me but okay with the whole I’m-not-smart-as-he-or-she thing.
[08] Manages to be adorable in messy hair and sweat

(I could go on and on with this.. LOL)

(Alam niyo bang number 6 at 8 lang ang nakuha NIYA diyan? LOL. Kaya naman hindi nila maintindihan kung bakit gusto ko SIYA… Of course, di ko alam yung number 1, just to make things clear ha!)

Something for my conservative friends. O_o Fluff drabble.

Oh by the way, about the previous post. Siguro okay na ring isipin niyang ganun, para less complicated. Haaaay. Pero ayoko talagang ayaw ako ng mga gusto ko. O_o

Gah. Eto na nga ang fluff drabble na maraming versions. Haha. Hanggang ngayon ganyan pa rin e. Pwe. O_o

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From http://clarapotpot.multiply.com

Fluff drabble again. I’m on a roll!

Will try to post an English version of short stories for my non-filipino online buddies.

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PALABAS

 

“So bale ganun yun. Hindi mo lang siya gagamiting excuse
noh. Hindi lang love stories ang kaya nating gawin, may mas importante pa
kasing mga bagay sa…”

 

Hindi ko naman siya naririnig e. Kayang-kaya ko ng i-absorb
ang sinasabi niya ng hindi nakikinig. Automatic na sakin yon. Natural.

 

Basta nakatitig lang ako. Slow-mo ang paggalaw niya. Yung malambot
na dampi nung hangin sa buhok niya, pagbukas-sara ng bibig niya at ang
pinaka-pinaka-pinaka: ang ningning sa mata niya. No joke. Kumikinang mata niya.

 

Lalung-lalo na sa ganitong usapan.

 

“Hello? Friend? Diyan ka pa?”

 

Tumawa ako. Oo naman. Palagi nga e.

 

“So as I was saying…”

 

Ayan. Tumahimik na naman ang buong mundo. Background music,
siya. Ngiti lang habang tumititig. Ngiti lang.

Hindi po ako feeling o nagfi-feeling. May mga bagay lang na hindi ma-explika dahil farout ang mga secrets.

So… ayon.

Or baka paranoid lang ako.

But whatever the case is, isipin na ang lahat wag lang na feeling ako.

It just sucks that I have to go through all this again. I guess you really don’t know how much you mean to me. And it’s ironic because it’s actually from you that I learned how to value commitment and loyalty to friendship.

But as you said, one has to hit rock bottom to finally see what’s what. (Or something like that anyway.)

And yes, I’ve finally come to the point that I’m tired. Of explaining, of defending, of trying to understand. OF YOU.

I won’t hope or wait anymore. If you do come around, then you come around but I don’t expect you to anymore. Coz I don’t want to go through this again. You keep saying sorry yet you keep hitting me on the head.

But before I truly go and let you be, let me just say this, not everything is about you. I’ve done a lot of thinking and that seems to be the problem.

A Perfect Sonnet - Bright Eyes

Lately I’ve been wishing I had one desire
Something that would make me never want another
Something that would make it so that nothing mattered
All would be clear then
But I guess I’ll have to settle for a few brief moments
And watch it all dissolve into a single second
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
‘Cause that’s all that you’ll get so you’ll have to accept
You are here then you’re gone
But I believe that lovers should be tied together and
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
But as for me I’m coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there is still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That is the only way it can be
So I stand in the sun
And I breathe with my lungs
Trying to spare me the weight of the truth
Saying everything you’ve ever seen was just a mirror
And you’ve spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
And now you are laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
Wishing you were a ghost
But once you knew a girl and you named her Lover
And danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, She disappeared
You can’t remember where she said she was going to
But you know that she’s gone ’cause she left you a song
That you don’t want to sing
We’re singing I believe that lovers should be chained together
And thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
And left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
But as for me I’m coming to my final failure
I’ve killed myself with changes trying to make things better
But I ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be
Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And layed entwined together on a bed of clover
And left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness

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I can’t believe I didn’t pay enough atttention to this band. I guess I was too smithen over My Chemical Romance because I found this band out the same time I first heard My Chemical Romance.

This song just rips, then shreds your heart. And then gets stepped on. Then fed to the dog.

And the lyrics? Need I say understandably and unpretentiously brilliant?

Hindi ako lasing!

- mga kaibigang lasing

Extinguish

 

 

 

May humatak sa kanang dulo ng kanyang labi.

 

“Hindi ako nagsisigarilyo,” sabi ko.

 

Tinapon niya ang sigarilyo sa lupa at inapakan ito.

 

“Hindi ko naman sinabing may pakialam ako kung ikaw ang
gumawa.”

 

Marahan siyang kumaway at tumango.

 

“Ano?”

 

Tumango siya.

 

“Ano?” tinanong ko ulit, naiinis na.

 

Tumalikod siya at naglakad palayo. Sa isang kisapmata,
nawala siya sa likod ng halos hindi naiilawan na dingding kung saan hindi naman
kami komportable.

 

Lumingon ako.

 

Sana

dinala ko
ang jacket ko.

 

Tinignan ko ulit ang likod ko. Tumatakbo naman ng maayos ang
party. Mayroong pinapalakpakan ang mga tao.

 

“Hindi,” binulong ko sa halos hindi naiilawan na dingding.

 

Madiin kong hinawakan at pagkatapos ay binitawan ang aking
mga braso.

 

Sumunod ako at nagtungo sa likod ng dingding.

 

 

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Nakaupo siya sa isang batong bangko.

 

“Hoy,” pagbati ko.

 

May humatak sa kanang dulo ng kanyang labi.

 

Itinuon ko ang aking mga mata sa lupa. “Hindi ako
nagsinungaling.”

 

Naglabas ulit siya ng isa pang sigarilyo. “May gusto ka bang gawin tungkol dito?”

 

Tinignan ko ang hawak niya. “H-hindi ako nagsisigarilyo.”

 

Tinitigan niya ako.

 

Binaling ko ang bigat ng aking katawan sa kabilang paa.

 

Tumitig pa rin siya at sinabi, “Sabi mo, wala kang pakialam
kapag ako ang gumawa.”

 

Nagkibit-balikat ako at mahigpit na hinawakan ang aking mga
braso.

 

Habang naghihintay pa rin siya ng sagot, inisip ko na dapat
talaga, nagdala ako ng jacket. Tumingala ako at napansin kong walang buwan.
Tinignan ko rin kung nakabukas ang mga ilaw sa kalsada pero ang mga anino ng
mga puno lang ang nakuha ko.

 

Nagtaas siya ng isang kilay.

 

Habang hinahawakan at binibitawan ko ang kanang braso ko,
naupo ako sa tabi niya.

 

“O,” simula niya habang nilalagay ang sigarilyo sa pagitan
ng kanyang mga labi. “Ako lang ba ang may gagawin tungkol dito?”

 

Marahan akong kumaway at tumango.

 

Napatawa siya dito.

 

Pagkatapos ng ilang sandali, nabangga ang siko ko ng kanyang
siko nang kinuha niya ang kanyang lighter sa kanyang bulsa. Tinignan niya muna
ako bago pinalabas ang munting apoy. Pagkatapos, itinapat niya ito sa pagitan
ng aming mga mukha na nagpalinaw sa kinang ng mga mata niya.

 

Tumango siya.

 

Nainis ako. Hinampas ko palayo ang lighter na pumatay sa
munting apoy na bumulag sa paligid ng kaunti.

 

Nagsalubong ang kanyang kilay. Pagkatapos, hinablot niya ang
aking mga kamay at inipit ito sa likod ko. Inalis niya ang sigarilyo sa kanyang
mga labi at pinasok ito sa aking bibig.

 

Malakas ang galak na hiyawan ng mga tao sa kabila ng pader
habang hinawakan ng mainit niyang hininga ang aking leeg.