Hellmouth Portal

BUFFY
I feel like I’m worse than anyone. Honestly, I’m beneath
  them. My friends, my boyfriends. I feel like I’m not worthy of their love.
  ‘Cause even though they love me, it doesn’t mean anything ’cause their
  opinions don’t matter. They don’t know. They haven’t been through what I’ve
  been through. They’re not the slayer. I am. Sometimes I feel� This is
  awful�I feel like I’m better than them. Superior.

HOLDEN
Until you can’t win. And I thought I was diabolical�or, at
  least I plan to be. You do have a superiority complex. And you’ve got an
  inferiority complex about it. Kudos.

BUFFY
It doesn’t make any sense.

HOLDEN
Oh, it makes every kind of sense. And it
  all adds up to you feeling alone. But, Buffy, everybody feels alone. Everybody
  is, until you die.

1. Read a political blog post which reminded me to go back into the world cause what the fuck is going on!? Assasinate the politicians! Off with their heads!

2. Got Veronica Mars Season 3! Ha! *skips* Thank you, thank you, thank you! *hug, kiss, hug, kiss*

3. Met with Maribeth! I’m smug that I am right! You are just too damn pretty! Ha! I love you! And I’ll kill all those who don’t! Kill! Kill!

4. ^____________^

The problem with acting dense is, eventually if you’re not careful, you really do become dense.

But irony of ironies, I was told that I over-rationalize too much because I can’t admit something to myself.

And maybe, if they just tell me what to do, I’d stop being worried.
I’m a natural slave anyway.

Oh well, I am planning to leave all of this so. Yeah.

Randomness. Sorry.

1. I just realized that it’s not that I hate everyone. It’s that I love everyone.

And also the reason why I have to get out of here. My mood depends on people I love too much. How can I learn to be independent when friends trigger things inside me with even just simple gestures?

2. February 6. One month. I guess I shouldn’t be too grumpy. I overcome a month before I reverted to emo claire.

3. Sorry. I blame it on chemicals and lack of sleep but I’d still try to be tolerable as I used to be.

Very, very confused state.

My bestfriends say that it’s natural to feel this way. But I feel I’m such a…

Anyway, I hope they’re right.

Guide energy to productivity!… My new mantra.

Ugh.

Other news. I have an ugly scar on my ugly face. Ugh.

Conspiring Gods!

*mumbles*